Five Minute Friday: Friend

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Prompt Word: Friend

That person you reach for when your emotions run high. 

The phone call you can make anytime day or night. 

The comfort of knowing that someone cares unconditionally.

That person who chooses to be there for you time after time, even when they can see that your going to crash and burn. 

That person who could be family if the genetics lotto had chosen people who were always meant to support each other to be family.

 A Friend.

This is the person I am missing in my life, that female friend I can tell anything too. That woman who cares for me past her own involvement in my life. The one who wants the details. That wants to hang out, get my phone call, support and be supported. That woman who has my back aways. 

Someone who puts me first in her friendship line. 

Someone to watch girly movies, drink wine and eat ice cream with when things go wrong. Or sit and have coffee with when a problem needs working out. Or connect over cocktails and celebrate together in any number of ways the milestones of our lives.

Birthdays, Holidays, Vacations, Girls Nights Out, secrets shared and histories swapped. 

But, somehow in twenty six years this female best friend has eluted me. Sure I’ve had female friends, and I was even lucky to once have a male best friend (till the end of high school), but none of my friendships with women have been lasting committed relationships

 ... none of them has wanted or needed a best-friend.

 And me, I’m getting to the point of loosing hope that I will find a female friend or even a small group of women to fill these needs. I desperately want to be this friend for someone and have the love I am willing to share be returned. 

I’m searching and waiting, but like with all things in my life not very patiently, to build a true friendship. For a woman who wants someone to be their best friend to come into my life and stay.