Five Minute Friday: In Between

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Unscripted. Unedited. Real."

Prompt Word: In Between

That time when things are quite and I have a moment or more to be myself. 

Those times when there isn’t a diaper to be changed, a nursing session in progress, or little one in need of holding.

This is the time when I am regaining the feeling of being me. Reading, Writing, Listening to music, finding time to worship and more. It is when I am reuniting with the person I have been before becoming a mother. It is these moments that I grow more comfortable in my ability to be and live.

This is also the time when I contemplate life. Where I am in it. Where my little family is in it. Where my extended family is in it. I question how we will face the new challenges we have been handed. 

This is the time that I contemplate the why and unfairness of life. 

The shortness of our time together no matter how long it is. 

This is the time when I fall apart and put myself back together before I am needed again to move forward in life. Needed to be present and in full gear without a shadow of my fear showing on my face, no trace of how I feel in my moments in between. 

Five Minute Friday: Rhythm

"No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation. 

Unscripted. Unedited. Real."

Prompt Word: Rhythm

One month. So fast and so slow...

Fast in the heart of a new mama who has spent years wishing and hoping for this season of life.

Slow are the days and hours filled with a new routine that has a completely different rhythm

 from the dance done in days past. 

So quickly things have changed, but I would not change them back for anything. 

I will take the early mornings and broken sleep, inorder to burry my nose in newborn little girl hair. 

I will feed and change and bounce, to see my little girl smile and coo. 

I will not wish away these days no matter the dance they bring. 

Bring on the new rhythm and let us learn this dance daughter, 

together we will not just get by in this season of life we will thrive. 

Five Minute Friday: Listen

"No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation. 

Unscripted. Unedited. Real."

Prompt Word: Listen

I’m straining, trying so hard to hear the rise and fall of that little chest without peaking into the bassinet. 
Please, please let her be asleep, but only asleep. Just for a little while longer.

Let me hear the sounds of her life for as long as there is breath in me. 

There, there it is ... the crunching of tires on gravel, reinforcements have arrived. 

Full of love and laughter, freedom and food. They don’t know that this sleepy mama really needed them desperately today, they just wanted to see the baby. But, thats okay cause it means a chance to sit still and breath for mama and maybe just maybe a precious nap till it’s time to nurse again.

Reassurance pours from the man in my life,
 and I cling to the words he says trying to listen with my whole heart and believe. 

You’re a good mom. 

She is lucky to have you. 

She loves you. 

Five Minute Friday: Fall

"No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation. 

Unscripted. Unedited. Real."

Prompt Word: Fall

I didn’t know it was going to happen, I suspected but I didn’t know. 

That moment when they laid her in my arms, my heart stopped. 

And when it started again it was changed. 

Altered in a way that will never be undone. 

I felt myself fall in love. 

I’ve embraced this fall far better than I have other major events in my life.

 Maybe because I waited so long and fought so hard for this one. 

Finish high-school. Go to college. Get married. Live a little. Buy a house. 

I waited and did the things I was “suppose” to do. 

Eat right. Exercise. Lose weight. 

Become healthy. Take vitamins. Take your temperature. 

Prepare your mind, body, and soul. Prepare your marriage and husband. 

Carry life, grow life. Protect the right of that life to chose when to enter our world.

Then there she was.

 Warm, pink, live and well, with a head full of hair and skin that was oh so soft.

I fell so hard in love with my daughter that my world has taken on a new rotation,
 the stars are still spinning, and life as I knew it will never be again.

Five Minute Friday: Imagine

"No extreme editing; no worrying about perfect grammar, font, or punctuation. 

Unscripted. Unedited. Real."

Prompt Word: Imagine

For the longest time it was all I could do. 

Think about what could be, how it would feel, how it would smell, how I would react. 

There was no reality, just the ability to imagine how motherhood would change me. The ability to think about how my body and mind would change. How a little one might look like me or act like me. 

Now, well now it’s real. She does and doesn’t look like me. She is and isn’t like me. She is better than I could imagine. More joy than I could ever have believed. Ten years of waiting has been worth it. 

She feels so soft. 

She smells so sweet. 

She brings the light to each of my days.

Imagining could never compare to reality on this one. 

My beautiful little girl is everything I’ve imagined over ten years and more ...